Saturday, November 20, 2010

A Time of Learning

There are a lot of things you learn when you move away from everyone and everything you know. I have moved several times in my adult life, but none of them have affected me quiet like this move has. Maybe it's because all previous major moves happened prior to The Hubs and Little One or maybe it was because I really didn't have any close friends before I moved. I don't know and I'm not sure I ever will. I have learned that when I do have friends, I need to be more thankful for them.

I feel that I am a very faithful friend. I have been hurt many times by people I thought were best friends who blew me off, or apparently didn't consider me as close a friend as I considered them. I'm not sure why, but I have been hurt more time than I can remember by people I thought were best/close friends.

I have had a really hard time making friends here. Our church is rather large, and Eric had a crazy schedule. Most people don't want to be close friends when they aren't in the same place in their life (ie: married, kids & age range). We also moved in the summer when most churches are just doing Sunday morning services. Then into fall and winter and lots of busy holidays and such. I also think that all those times of being hurt has had a big impact on the way I am willing to put myself out there.

I have felt pretty depressed at times and really missing our family. Mix that with not having any readily available babysitters with Eric's crazy schedule and this little Mommy is worn out and needs a break! I have the utmost respect for single parents! I truly have no idea how they survive!

There are many things happening with family, brother-in-law is getting married, future sister-in-law is pregnant, nephew turned 4 and my sister was at the end of a long stretch of medical issues, my Grandpa passed away. I had/have to miss all those things, not to mention, they are all missing Little E growing and changing SO much.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE it here in Colorado! It is our dream location to live! If only it was all of our families dreams as well!

I'm not quite sure if I'm making any sense at all. I just needed to get this off my chest. If you think about it, please keep The Hease family in your prayers! We could really use the prayers.

1 comment:

Tiffany Paige Koop said...

Oh April! I SO wish we had more than 1 car so I could come visit you! Matt works everyday at 1pm so getting down there and back before 12pm is just not an easy task! :( But I PROMISE after the crazy holidays we'll get down there more often (Matt's schedule will change in January). I am sorry this transition has been tough but I have SO been there almost exactly 1 year ago. My MOPS group was a salvation for me. Things WILL get better just hang on. I love you SO much and hope you feel my hug across the interwebs :)